I have been MIA lately. Not only have I retreated from blogging but I have retreated from message boards as well. I felt like I was spending too much time on message boards. I was neglecting my duties at home. For the past week or so I have discovered fun games on Facebook. Farkle is so addicting. Seriously I think these things are sucking life out of people. SO now I will to avoid games on facebook or only allow myself a reasonable time.
That would be where lazy or distracted comes in. I need to clean, do schoolwork before the school year starts, diet, exercise, and organize my scrapbook stuff. I do none of it. I watch my daughter play. I don't get on the floor with her much since my tooth starts to hurt. (My root canal is Thursday so that should take care of it.) She takes at least one 2 hour nap everyday and I play on the computer. I would not call me lazy since I am not sitting on the couch like a slug but I am so distracted. I used to smoke and I would say things like if I get X done, I can smoke. Now I just don't get started.
So that brings me to my current predicament. I have topped out at 250 lbs. I am miserable. I am not taking a lot of pride in my appearance since I do not feel good. I hate to see pictures of myself and I get sweaty just changing my daughter. I try to get myself on track and I do well for a couple days. I get a little craving for something crappy and I eat it, overeat it even. I then feel totally disgusting.
Saturday was my birthday and now I figure this is a good time to recommit. New month, new "year," and new week. I am trying to get my week together and clean and get all I need to do done. I will schedule some time on for blogging and games.
Treat your blogging/computer time just as you did your smoke break time. If I do XYZ I can play farkle (btw I love that game!)
ReplyDeleteTake a deep breath, and set one small goal for yourself this week. One healthy habit - drink more water, meditate for 10 min a day, eat more veg, take a multivitamin, take your daughter for a walk for 30 mins a day. Start small, and work on getting yourself into a good "head space". (That's always important for me) Then recommit yourself. You can do this!!!
Thanks. The "head space" thing is so big. You have to be in the right frame of mind. I bought Personal Training: Walking. It gives you a mini goal each day like walk straighter or eat 3 healthy meals. My hubby always says he achieved. I am very serious about mine and give myself a true yes or no. Today was eat a meal with someone. I eat every meal with my daughter.
ReplyDeleteI try to do the computer time thing but for some reason it just sucks me in. I swear Farkle is like some kind of horror movie gimmick and it is sucking out our life force.