Going back

TO MEETINGS!!!

I have to. This is just not working. Now for the story of how I decided to go back.

I have a cousin who is 10 years older than me. She has a daughter 10 years younger than me. My older cousin lost weight on WW. I have lost weight in the past on WW but I am really struggling right now. My little cousin has a good friend who is very overweight and eats out all the time. She goes with her. She was here for dinner a few night ago and asked if I would go with her to help her. She knew I had considered it but really did not like the leader in my area. I also can't bring my daughter to some meetings. I found out that not only is this a different leader but I can bring my daughter. I decided to go to support my little cousin. I want to help her since I know how she feels. What a great way to help myself, by helping someone else.

Now I have a confession. I have a coworker who has lost a great deal of weight by eating over healthy. I could never go to the extreme she has. She also evaluates my food to some degree and I find that so irritating. I also have a new assistant principal who is slim and tall and very professional looking. She makes me want to do better at my job and dress professionally (something I cannot do as fat as I am since I refuse to buy more clothes and I wear frumpy stuff now). Now...today I thought, wait a minute...I looked good when I lost weight in 2003. I can look like that again and I will...

I do really think that I will feel better, walk taller, and smile more when I lose weight. It is amazing how I know that I will feel and look better but I am struggling. SO tomorrow I go back to WW meetings. Not only do I go back but I am going back as a newbie. I am not taking my lifetime card with me. I am going to register as a newbie and start all over. The lifetime status gives me an excuse to drop out...I can always come back when I am ready and not have to pay registration, I can just weigh monthly until I am ready, I will go back when I am close to my goal so I can use the lifetime card... Not this time...I have to get it all over again.