My Reasons to Start

This is the reason that I am trying to get my health and weight on track. I am so afraid that my bad eating habits will be passed to this little one. I need to get them under control before she starts to really be influenced by what I am doing.

Right now I feel so out of control. I am eating with wild abandon, I spend way too much time on the internet, I am not effectively managing my time, and I am generally stressed.

I realize that I have a million and one excuses. I keep resetting the starting date on WW online. Every time I eat something I shouldn't I reset my weigh in date and say, I will start tomorrow. That gives me permission to eat whatever for the remainder of the day. A few days later I do the same thing again.

My hope is that this blog and using some of the cognitive behavior therapy techniques in The Beck Diet Solution will help. This is the last time I will say "I start tomorrow!"

So far I have completed days one and two of the program. I listed all of my advantages for losing weight. I put them with a picture of my number on reason and posted one in the bathroom, one in the kitchen, one on the front door, and one in my purse. This is something that I am supposed to read a few times a day too remind myself of why I am doing this. I also committed to WW. If that does not work I will resort to the South Beach diet.

For tomorrow Day 3...I am to eat eerything sitting down. This will cut down on mindless eating. For instance, I often walk through the front office at school. I stop at the secretary's desk and get a handful of Reese's pieces or M&Ms that she keeps there. I am eating and walking and talking. Before I know it I have eaten a couple handfuls or more.

I know I can do this. It is not like I am even hungry. I am armed with my advantagee cards and a meal plan for the week.